The Fat Side of Me

I’ve been quiet lately. Trying to take some things in and deal with them. I went to the gyn on Monday for my test results and to have an ultrasound done of my female parts because I have extremely heavy bleeding and somethings arent right. Well my lab work showed that i’m pre diabetes and I have to start seeing a dietitian to get it under control so I don’t end up with full blown diabetes.. I’m still trying to deal with this and accept it. I really dont have a choice in the matter do I? I have to deal with it and I have to accept it. I go to the dietitian on Friday. The dr said they’d give me a monitor and i’d have to monitor my levels for awhile. I’m so not looking forward to it.  Anyhow the ultrasound showed my uterus is 3x the size it should be and that I have a fibriod. They want to do a hysterectomy but I can’t afford it. My deductible is 5000$ and I don’t have that kind of money right now.  Then ontop of all that.. My eye glasses broke when I took them off at the drs office. I had to go get my eyes checked so I could get new glasses.. I’m so stressed out. I feel emotionally maxed out completely. I don’t even know where to start right now.. I’ll just be glad when Friday is over with because right now I don’t know what to do… The doctor told me to stop weight watchers that it wasn’t a good plan for me. She didnt tell me what a good plan was.. Just told me to stop weight watchers and go see this dietitian she referred me to. So until friday I have no game plan..